Alright, I just finished my first blog post about a week ago. Yes, I meant to post more often, but due to my dear husband spending more time on the laptop than usual I have not had the chance. After all, I spend the bigger part of my day sitting at a desk on a computer, when I get home if I want to get on the computer I only want to use the laptop on the couch or in bed, I sure don't want to use the desktop. Anyway, enough complaining. I didn't say I was going to be writing about my computer but my diet.
I will start from the "sort of" beginning. I have been overweight most of my life. When I say most I guess according to today's standards I should really say ALL of my life. My smallest size as an "adult" has been a size 13/14 when I was in collage, and that was after being sick for a very long time and living on soup. So this has been a constant struggle. I didn't really start to work on it until I got married. I know that kind of sounds weird, but I had always been that way and until I lost the weight in collage I just never knew any other way to be. After I lost that weight I was very happy at the size I was at, after all I was smaller than I had been in high school and I felt I looked pretty good.
Then that wonderful thing called motherhood happened. I remembered how much fun it was to eat while I was pregnant. There was no stopping me then. You know when you have four children in the first 6 years of your marriage there really is very little time to diet and a lot of time to eat! I remember that I would try to exercise and all between pregnancies only to find out that I was pregnant again. Well after four children and gaining I don't know how much weight I finally had enough. I told my husband that I wanted to start Weight Watchers. He told me that if that is what I wanted to do he would sign me up. I really did pretty good on it, the first time. I lost about 60 pounds and was feeling so good. Then the dreaded happened, the lose started to get slower and slower. Then I got sick for about a month and a half and stopped working out, and then it was Christmas time and since I wasn't working out or doing well on my WW, we might as well save some money and end my membership, you can guess where it goes from there. Now a little more than a year later and most of the weight is back.I tried to go back on WW a couple of more times, only to give up-or never really start- again and again.
Then one day my husband was talking to our doctor and he told him about a weight loss program he and his wife had been on. He too was some overweight and so he thought he would try it. Well the weight started to drop off of him. I mean drop. He lost so much weight and so quickly. I started to feel very depressed, and even fatter. Did I do what he did, no, it scared me to death. I couldn't imagine eating so few calories, not to mention it seemed soooo restrictive. I just love food way too much. He kept telling me that I should try it, he said I would love it. I was very skeptical, but he finally talked me into it.
On July 5th of this year I started the same program. I am glad to report that so far so good. As of this past Monday I have lost 13 lbs. That is pretty good considering I haven't even been on it for a month. I will keep you all up to date on my progress. Sorry for the long story to get to this point, but I thought it would be good to give some background. I will try and post some before and progress pictures soon. Thanks for reading and
TTFN
Celestia, I feel like I can totally relate to your story! I know I dont have 4 kids, but I do know what you mean about how motherhood can sortof make you lose track of your self. Its so hard to focus on yourself when you have others to worry about on a day to day basis. I hope to find inspiration through you and Nicki! Great Job girl on the 13 lbs!!
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